I got arrested on mushrooms when I was nineteen.
During my stay at the 94th Precinct, with my mugshot blazing at me from the buzzing TV (I'll tell you about that later), I deeply contemplated an idea that there were two types of minds out there. A creative mind, and a cop mind.
Now if you're thinking I'm going to cop bash, I'm not. I also don't believe in right/wrong, good/bad or any of that. I believe there are many "cops" that ID as creative, and many creatives that ID as "cops.". Yin/Yang.
A cop mind has a manual they can follow that they believe everyone should adhere to unilaterally. To this mind, this manual is the proven way to success, and abiding by this rule structure will yield you the most success with hard work, a five-and-ten year plan, and complete observance of The Law. It is 95% execution, and 5% creativity.
When your parents are insisting that you return to college (after you've spent 20 minutes teaching them how to call an Uber.), start a four-year internship for a job you don't want, or when your peers are constantly demanding to know what's next for you. When will you stabilize? Be "productive"? Settle down? These are ways your creative mind can feel policed by cop thoughts.
A creative mind asks "Why?" always. There is no rule book, you are The Law. You don't have a book of morals, but your honor is universal. On a case by case basis, you see each experience as your art, and you use your honor to curate settings that you think will lift yourself and those around you to their highest vibration.
As a creative you are neurologically hardwired to see another option for everything, and move into your choice from an intuitive (read: joyful) place. That makes following a rule book you didn't write a very difficult procedure for you. A creative mind is 95% creativity, and 5% execution.
As a creative you have to cultivate habits like discipline, trust, patience, and a filter that blocks out people that stifle your creativity.
When you're not following a little book of life that can tell you pretty accurately what you'll be doing twelve Thursdays from now at 4pm, you have to have a lot of trust. Sometimes that means not knowing where your next paycheck is coming from. In these times, that little smidge of a cop mind (Yin/Yang, right?) can start to surface with doubts like these:
"Am I doing the right thing?"
"Does my work matter?"
"Should I get a regular job/go back to school/move back in?"
I've been helping artists get what they need for most of my adult life. Insurance, direction, visas, a space to create, a witness, support, inspiration.
I've seen magnificently successful artists swing from tons of money, to zero money. I've seen well established artists in their fifties and sixties doubt their craft with these same questions.
You need to understand something about yourself, Holly. If you identify as a creative, that's who you are. The rule book exists in a completely different culture than you live in. No matter how stressful things get, putting on a uniform and trying to fit yourself into a little box with a clear outcome will not be the solution for you, dear one. If you do this, the world will not have your gift. I don't want to live in a world that doesn't get to see your art.
So don't give up. Don't hit the book. Having a cop mind isn't bad at all (unconditional love, right?) it's just a completely different culture, and it won't ever be your solution. So toss it out. Don't give it any life. Apologizing, settling, and backtracking is not an option.
You are creative. As such you are responsible for the creation of all that you see. As creative you ALWAYS have access to other ways around a problem besides the "obvious" choice.
I've stepped out of conventional Life Coaching completely (because I'm not a cop)to focus on what is most important to me: Giving artists of all mediums have the tools they need to stand in their power as creatives, and own it, get PAID for it. With time I'll finesse the perfect platform to launch you and all your friends off of, but for now, I'll share what I have - which is the support you need to stay creative.
I want a world where some kid in a car can see you walking down the street with your wild-ass outfit and your wild-ass hair, happy AF because you trust yourself, and realizes there's a way to BE that his parents haven't told him about yet. I want this kid to go home and start creating. Bang, we just created one less angry cop, walking the motherfuckin' beat all resentful because they opted to do something they can't stand because they couldn't trust themselves.
The emails you opted into receiving from me (you can unsubscribe below) will all be geared towards this mission. I'm going to teach you how to trust, how to stay in your creative zone, how to attract buyers by being, and manifesting (yes) everything you desire into existence. If you have friends you think could use something like this, they won't find it unless you send it to them. So be the connection, and let's collaborate on this.
You can do it, you already are doing it, so don't give up.
xoxo - H
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